miércoles

& i think u should know this: u deserve much better than me





today is one of those days when i feel down; i feel angry with everyone & everyone hates me; i feel like shit & i wanna kill myself D: no se, realmente trato de ser mas abierta, de decir lo que siento, de dejar de ser tan fria, de dejar de ocultar lo que me pasa debajo de la piel...porque aunque no quiera, eso me afecta sobremanera a mi y a los que me rodean, los lastimo, los hago odiarme...y es como que no puedo evitarlo, me superan las ganas de llorar, de arrancarme todo y dejarme ir..me molesto a mi misma, me odio pero no cambio, es comodo estar asi, es mas facil que sentirse bien y ser feliz y optimista..(me gusta estar cayendo, sigo esperando el impacto..)nada, me estoy cayendo a pedazos..(broken inside)


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wkG56P9uBeU
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wkG56P9uBeU
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wkG56P9uBeU                       


[She is an angel with a dirty face & it seems to me; she is a casuality of all the pressure that we put on her;
& now
we´ve lost her for good; its such a shame shame shame that our homecoming queen;
was a lot like u and a lot like me]

lunes

he makes me feel like its raining outside~






["me hice prometer a mi mism(a) un par de cosas,una lista larga, pero en definitiva redunda un toco...es facil, las cosas son fáciles,el tema es hacer.cuando estas comod(a) es mas facil quejarse,proyectar,volar,todo si pero todo en la cabeza.es hora de hacer la posta,nada mas,eso.
no hay un alrededor un vos,un aquel,un nadie,se trata de mi,un yo mas egoista que nunca"]     


cuanta verdad se esconde detras de tan hermosas palabras...

#loveSTORY~




[romeo take me somewhere we can be alone; i'll be waiting all there's left to do is run; u'll be the prince and i'll be the princess; it's a love story baby just say yes]

domingo

[die,die,die my darling]



today i woke up & said: im so tired of being myself; i really need a break.its raining outside; i wannabe a part of the rain; i just wanna throught away everything. im losing myself again; i just lose my best friends, the guy that i love, the person i used to be..i dont know, im sad & i wanna be with mateo & feel allright again..i feel just like im losing control~

martes

horrorenojoimefui(?)





[she don't know who she is, oh, i can take her anywhere, do whatever comes naturally to u, u know she just don't care, u know she just don't care, cause i am always where, i need to be, & i always thought, i would end up with u eventually]

malhumordia1;yseraunestadoprogresivohastael19/noviembrequesinoesunodelosdiasmasfelicesdemividava
serelpeordetodos;quieroqueseaviernesindiegofestenelabbeyroadynada..chau
SECRETSDONTMAKEFRIENDS(butthetruthbreaksomefriendshipsD:)

viernes

punkrockprincess~

Maybe when the room is empty,
Maybe when the bottle's full.
Maybe when the door gets broke down,
Love can break in.

Maybe when I'm done with thinking,
Maybe you can think me whole.
Maybe when I'm done with endings
This can begin, this can begin
This can begin.

If you could be my punk rock princess,
I would be your garage band king.
You can tell me why you just don't fit in
And how you're gonna be something

Maybe when your hair gets darker,
Maybe when your eyes get wide,
Maybe when the walls are smaller
There will be more space

Maybe when I'm not so tired,
Maybe you could step inside
Maybe when I look for things that
I cant replace, I cant replace
I cant replace.

If you could be my punk rock princess,
I would be your garage band king.
You could tell me why you just don't fit in,
And how you're gonna be something.

If I could be your first real heartache,
I would do it over again.
If you could be my punk rock princess,
I would be your heroine.

I never thought you'd last,
I never dream you would.
You watch your life go past,
You wonder if you should.

If you should be my punk rock princess,
So I could be your garage band king.
You could tell me why you just don't fit in,
And how you're gonna be something.

If I could be your first real heartache,
I would do it over again.
If you could be my punk rock princess,
I would be your heroine.

Whoa! you know!
You only burn my bridges
Whoa! you know!
You just cant let it sink in!
You could be my heroine,
You could be my heroine!

 

miércoles

ihatemyselfandiwannadie~

GOD imsofuckinghorrible;ihatesofuckingmuchmyself;iwannadie;todayisabadday D:iwannabeperfect;butimugly U_U
mesientomal;meodio;tequieroynomedasnilahora;ydesdeellunesqueestoyasiyvosnuncatevasafijarenminuncavoyasertanperfectaparavos,siemprevoyaserlapersonaqueesquivasconstantemente..dameunaoportunidad u.u



[I'm having another episode I just need a stronger dose]

lunes

[beautiful in blue]




what a wonderful caricature of intimacy!~

tragedy king
falte al colegio e.e(manija!)y pretendia salir a repartir curriculums y encuestas para proyecto pero llueve MAL(?). nah,en 17 dias es la fiesta, me falta la bijou, estoy hasta las manos con todo(jugada!)no quiero facultad tan pronto; quiero morir(?); boe, no, intoxicarme "somewhere downtown where a burlesque queen even ask my name"(?)
["soy del tipo de persona que en momento de crisis(no quiero llamarme crixis U_U)va de shopping"totalmente de acuerdo escala Lickert] school SUCKS bitch!
yeah; im a motherfucker, just that~
extraño demasiado a ese cosow MIO [quisiera poder odiarte,me haria las cosas mas facil!;quisiera poder, quisiera poder!]
no se mucha presion[I can feel the pressure;it´s getting closer now]quiero despertarme y que sea diciembre(viernes 4;luego de Biologia;D)y tirar la carpeta, el cuaderno, la profe(?)TODO al tacho y hacer un super bondi(lease mosh;descontrol;etc)en el curso y tirar papel higienico por la ventana y decirle a Baby que el papada me vende merca(?)que ella es emo y que conozco a alguien que tuvo fantasias con ella y el papada en preceptoria y que habia lingerie erotica(?)(piensa, ser rie[vomiting])
*ademas pretendo decirle a Martin Segura<3 que es mi amor idílico; que su voz increible y su pancita de cerveza tan sexy(?) me conquistaron e.e y que aunque este casado y tenga 43 años lo amo y me voy a casar con el en alguna vida <3
the Jesus of Suburbia is a lie ; WORLD WIDE SUICIDE!